Unwritten.

Its the end of 2010 and I just feel like getting my life back or would I say starting a whole new chapter of my book?! This year was like if nothing had happened, as if i was living every one of my days waiting for the next one to come like if the present day was just a transition for wherever i really wanted to get, but you know what? that doesnt work! I spent my whole year waiting for my life to get interesting and forgot that I AM THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR MAKING IT INTERESTING! So im done with my wait and im back on the game!

On Friday night im heading to my hometown to visit my family and my friends and thats when everything starts again! Tomorrow im going shopping for summer clothes, considering that the temperature there will be like 40 degrees i guess ill need those; later im gonna meet my friend and he is gonna be my representative man at this two english schools where im going to apply to be a teacher! Im excited for that! And still later im gonna go to the beauty salon and get my nails done, my eyebrows done and everything else a lady has rights to have before an exciting trip!

Well i have good plans for next year i just hope i can make them happen and dont just give up on them, a little list of my main wishes for 2011:

- Start French classes!

- Keep up with the gym!

- Teach English!

I wish a great beginning for myself!

My song of the day: Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dg_7TL5PAzA

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, i'm undefined. I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ENDING UNPLANNED. Starring at the blank page before you open up the dirty window let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find. Reaching for something in the distance, so close you can almost taste it. Release your inhibitions! Feel the rain on your skin, NO ONE ELSE CAN FEEL IT FOR YOU, only you can let it in! No one else can speak the words on your lips, drench yourself in words unspoken, LIVE YOUR LIFE WITH ARMS WIDE OPEN, TODAY IS WHEN YOUR BOOK BEGINS, THE REST IS STILL UNWRITTEN! I BREAK TRADITION, SOMETIMES MY TRIES ARE OUTSIDE THE LINES. WE'VE BEEN CONDITIONED TO NOT MAKE MISTAKE, BUT I CAN'T LIVE THAT WAY!

Caught in a trap, I can't look back. Baby, I hate days like this.

Well, I just created this blog cause I need to let things out somewhere! I am not gonna start explaining whoever I am or anything, with time you'll get to know me better.
I'm just too frustrated today. I just came back from this big test we have to take here in Brazil in order to get into university and I"ll tell you one thing, THIS IS CRAP, no jokes you spend your whole year doing nothing but studying for this freaking test and when it comes you do bad on it ? Seriously ? What about everything I studied during this year ? Am I dumb or something ? At the end of the day I didn't pass on it and will probably have to spend next year taking school and studies for the same test, haha isn't it exciting ? I still have one last shot which is the Federal University of Parana and I really don't think I'm gonna pass on this one either cause its harder than the one I took today so I'm screwed!
Just to complete the day I did worst than my sister who is taking the same test and worst than my friends that are taking the test too. And now I have my sister screaming and freaking out cause she did well 'aaaaaah aaaaaaaah I did weeell ! aaah aaaaah I'm gonna pass!' and my parents 'Congratulations my dear, I am sooo happy for you! And you Caroline it's ok, next year!' THE PROBLEM IS! I'M OLDER THAN MY FREAKING SISTER! I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PASSING ON THIS FREAKING TEST NOT HER! But as usual things don't come my way that easily, I don't know why I still wait for those things, just to get frustrated at the end. Seriously!

well, whatever.